Lost.Empty.Full Of Shit

Monday, August 24, 2009

I am so happy i'm on leave today. But why does time have to pass so fast?

Can everyday be like today? On leave? Still kena paid.. Get it? I am seriously

dying of drinking too much.. and i guess smoking too.. I wished i had more

energy to blog and upload pictures and stuff regularly like other ppl.. But i

just dun have the time or energy or you can say i cant be bothered.. Its good

enough i log in to facebook sometimes.. Ppl ask me which mountain i live on..

Oei.. Hello.. I am busy working and the rest of the time going out with you

guys or others.. So that leaves me no time to log in to things like blogs,

facebook, msn, blah blah.. I have never been too good at the IT stuff..

Now no time makes it worst.. I dun even know what the hell is TWITTER!..

ok now i kinda do.. but still cant be bothered..

Funny thing.. Last time when i was very damn young, we ask for addresses

and keep penpals, then i was younger, ppl will simply ask for phone number..

NOw leh.. Ask for facebook add.. What the hell.. No wonder the govt very

scared with globalisation and stuff,ppl lose the basic capability like face to

face communication..

Some times i just wanna say maybe its better to keep in contact via phone..

I still think its more personalised this way.. At Least i will know what's going

on instantly.. If you post it on facebook i might log in after the event is over..

No wonder i become like mountain turtle..

Funny how i suddenly love to club.. Think its not abt clubbing.. If you ask me

to Zouk i still dun wanna go.. I guess i really love butter.. I have never been

there once without enjoying myself and totally exhausted from dancing!! And

i love the new friends known as the 'butter gang' haha.. Totally cool and fun ppl..

Love them!!

I am crapping.. Wanna go shopping but i am saving for my Bangkok trip.. I know..

Your must be saying BANGKOK ALSO MUST SAVE MEH?/ Oei. you think

wat? I earn peanuts, paying for so many loans, and i think i club smoke and

drink too much..

Whatever, i am broke..

I think Kurt is cute.. He is closest to the twin brother band group : SOLER that

i can find in real life.. Sorry ah, i have always have a thing for SOLER!! OMG!!

(XueEr - Seeking Happiness,3:30 PM)

Friday, July 24, 2009

I am here writing this damn entry while kena biten to death by god damn fleas.. What the hell..

I think i forgotten something but i dun know what..

Ok but i better remember that i have to attend the reunion on 22 Aug 2009.. I hope i better remember.. SO girls please remember to remind me.. I know i am pretty ass sometimes, but pls understand i only have one brain and i really have been bugged to death at work.. So forgive me.. I am itching all over.. God damn it..

WEll, present of the day.. A lawyer letter from some chicken shit owner.. Make ppl not free lor.. WTH!!

(XueEr - Seeking Happiness,1:30 PM)

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

I am just freaking bored with life i guess.... I dun know what i want and what i already have to feel blissed about... What happened to me ? The me who's all talks about directions, wants, goals and ambitions.. When did i stoop so low..

I thought i had morals, principles and shame.. But now i guess i lost everything.. Talk abt being pathetic.. I dun even know when i've become who i am.. Is this work life? I dun think so.. Its too pathetic a reason.. Its me.. Me all along...I am just evil.. No one else to blame..

Sometimes i worry that i might have split personality.. How can one ppl have so many sides and each side differ so drastically from one another...Haizz.. Why does one keep repeating the same mistake.. When will one really learn? Or issit that i am really too fortunate that i am taking it for granted...Women are evil creatures...

(XueEr - Seeking Happiness,1:35 PM)

Monday, March 2, 2009

I dun know why i feel like puking.. No I'm not pregnant.. Just the 'dun

feel like eating', 'dun feeling like talking', 'dun feel like doing anything

mood'.. Must be the overindulgence in work and lack of personal

life and excitement.. Sometimes i feel like 110 years old.. Dragging

my feet to work everyday.. Refusing to let myself feel.. Feeling nothing

for anything.. I cannot let myself pause

and feel.. If not i'll probably never get my ass up to work any more.. Must i say

it again? I hate to work.. I hate how my life is turning out to be..

Is it really 'Life sucks and you die?"..

Ok maybe its 'Life sucks, you work, you are still poor and you still die.."

What the hell...

Its even worst..

I need to meet new ppl.. Desperately.. But i dun know how.. Ya i meet

NEW ppl everyday, but nothing much interesting happen.. Maybe i should

rephrase.. I need new friends!!

Ok i miss my old friends as well.. I hate having to rush home after drinks

or dinner just because i am working tomorrow.. I hate ppl talking

down to me.. I hate ppl expecting this and that..

Haiz.. I am letting myself feel for a little while.. Everything sucks,...

Question open to all..

Who can let me be Tai Tai i immediately marry him ah..

Well, i have been asking some, apparently nobody can do that.. WTH..

The next ppl i meet i will pop that question first.. Haha if you can,

pls can i be your friend??

WTH...

Ok on the brighter side, i met a cute guy just now..

Sorry girls, not the rich condo owners or whatsoever, not even close..

Haha he is some toilet bowl guy..

Ok lah i abit mean to say that, he is the management of some toilet bowl com..

Haha, doesnt make it sound better too..

Ok lets try again, He works for a toilet bowl company..

LOL..

Still not good? Ok la.. He is an employee somewhere.. LOL

Thats the best..

Well, he is cute la, but he is a MA REN!!

Wei, you dun form opinions yet hor..

Some MA REN damn yandao one hor..

Doesnt mean they are poorer than us either..

I have met a few who have more money than the Singaporean guys here lor..

Then they also more thoughtful and gentleman lor..

So dun anyhow hor...

Haha..

HE ASKED FOR MY NAME..

WTH..

Its work contacts la.. Can..

(XueEr - Seeking Happiness,12:44 PM)

Friday, January 9, 2009

A Merry Week

20 Dec (Sat)

Every body!! Aileen's little girlie's first month!! Little Elizabeth is

so pretty! Sleeping half of the time. Too bad I didnt get to carry her that day.

Anywayz, its such a pleasant surprise to see so many familiar faces

again!! I cant believe I havent seen some for like 7 years!! OMG!!

Anyway, everyone looked so much better and are doing things that

are so much more meaningful.. Hee.. Still the old saying goes: I missed

those good old days...

Old Friends.

Little Elizabeth.

22 Dec 08 (Mon)

As a yearly thing, the 3 old friends will meet up to exhange prezzies.

Though this year abit special. We all shared to buy each other's presents.

So it ended up the other 2 already knew what they were getting for

their presents except me..

We were supposed to eat somewhere in Turf City, after changing here and

there for so many times. Still we didnt get to eat whatever we came for

instead we settled for good old days 'marina south' type of steamboat.

Haha need I say it again? But i miss those days.

The 3 Old Friends.

I hate my Corporate Look.

24 Dec 08

Merry Merry Christmas! The long awaited Christmas gathering. Last year I

didnt managed to spend Christmas with the gang, other than eve, juan, sheen

and ling. Well, we were at Aleste 'party' and apparently, he is not too

popular with some..

Well, anyway, its nice to spend it with young ppl who couldnt care less once

in a while.

Attendance.

We look pretty stupid.

But..

WHATEVER!?!?!

My camera doesnt work well without flash.

Don't judge the food by our looks. Cause it really kinda STINKS!!

Muahaha..

They say I have pretty lashes.

HAHAHA.

We played a DUMB game called 'Gu Gu Jiao'...

My Present.

Guess what it is ?

A Weighing MAchine...

FABULOUS...

At least we managed to take a proper decent photo.

We managed to capture the GATE-CRASHERS!

Haha.. ok la they were pretty fun to be with.

They started to get a little crazy.

The last proper scene, before the BOYS started to have fun with the

"Carli Pock" / " Tau Pock" thingy..

I dun really know why it is fun..

Anyway they started to squash each other by lying on top of each other.

The one at the bottom was supposed to be 'Carli-pocked'???

LOL..

Dun ask me. Must be some army guy stuff...

Before the night ended.

26 Dec 08

Boxing Day!! Though we didnt have any boxes around, we had a fabulous day.

Went with my mum and sis to SunTec for shopping. I bought my Mum to the shop

where I bought the most expensive thing in my life : $366 Dress

Hah!!

But I LOVE it!!

Anyway, My mum bought another dress which is supposed to be like the

same series as the one I bought. Mine's short, her's long. But the pattern and

material used are similar, so we will be like SISTERS!!

My REAL sister told us to stand far away from her that night..

LOL

Think she's feeling the Threat..Muaha..

The two dresses are really pretty and I cant wait to let everyone see..

But still, I will only the package on 17 MAy 09..

Ok back, its so nice not to be working, but lazing ard in malls, spending

a hell lot of money and rotting in some nice cafe. At least there is no crowd.

I think i am BORNED to be Tai-Tai.

Haha...

NOBLE HOUSE.

Waiting for food!

My Daddy.

Groupie.

2 Jan 09

I dun have any photos for this, but I think its worth writing. On 2 Jan, my sis

to organize a BBQ session for the family. And my DAD decided to ask my

uncle's family along. Not my mother's side, but my Father's side.

You know.. the side that I am not exactly feeling very comfortable with.

I just cannot believe it that two families can Hee Hee and Ha Ha with each

other like old friends...

Talking abt PRing.. LOL.

Anyway the food was fabulous and damn expensive for a damn BBQ. My Sis

literally went all over S'pore to get those stuff. Prime lamb rib, Sirloin steaks,

cheezy sausages, stingrays, beacon cheese oysters..

Yum! Best BBQ food ever. It taste fit for a 5 star restaurant.

I must say my sis is a good cook. Lucky Sammy...

P/S: I cant wait for 3 more weeks. Then the 4 old friends will get together

to sing: Kel, Me Clare, Boon. Haha.. Those days. Who wanna see those

horrifying videos of mine? I dun really mind cause I dun really

have an 'IMAGE' anymore.

How Abt 100 bucks I let you see CLARIS in it??? LOL..EVIL!!

P/P/S: Its so exciting to see my sis's gown fitting sessions..

The atmosphere is literally crackling with excitement.

ok, maybe its me and my over-reaction.

(XueEr - Seeking Happiness,1:39 PM)

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

MUCH TO TELL....

KYAN's ANNIVERSARY

It was such a pleasant surprise when I opened the letter box and this

lovely invite fell out. Though I knew abt the plan a gazillion months

ago, it was still a pleasant surprise: like FINALLY!!!

and so, the BIG day came. BIG because I am gonna take the last exam for

possibly the last time in my ENTIRE life!!!

Oh MY GOD!!

It seemed like yesterday I had my orientation..

Goodness...

Well, right after the examination of 2.5 hrs, I flew down to

SENTOSA COVE!!

The next IN thing in town!!

To be very frank, I was freaking tired and my brains are like

dried up after 2 mths of rushing 3 projs and 1 week of

studying day and night...

So it turned out that I looked like shit in all the daylight pictures...

But WHATEVER?!!

I still love my girlies!!

On the Deck.

Trying to catch the seaview. Though it was a little pathetic

cause all we see is construction and parked yacht ard us.

Soon, the sun started to set.

The only sad part of the evening was that it started to drizzle a little

and it really wasnt nice to be on a yacht when the wind is blowing

and the sea is rocking, cause we will go left and right too.

And soon, some ppl might get a little seasick.

Since its the first time I have ever been onto a yacht, I was very excited but

a little seasick as well. Nevertheless, the fun made me forget everything.

630pm in the evening and its DOLL-UP time!!!

And i simply love dressing up with the girls!!

MAking-up.

I was one of the few who got ready first.

When i said we should get ready at 630pm, everyone was like HUH??

SO EARLY FOR WHAT??

HAHA...

You know what when everyone finally gotten ready at last, it was freaking 9pm!!!

Can you believe it?

5 girls taking turns to bath and shave the legs,

followed by make-up,

and it took 2.5 hrs!!

Poor Terrance and Fergus had to be thrown outside the room while waiting for us..

Muahaha...

So finally, we were ready!!

Nice Mr Fergus, Chan Chuan Zhi made Lychee Martini for me, though I knew technically

it was Lychee Volka. Cause we didnt have martini.

Anyway, I will never forget this guy's chinese name, cause I didnt know

he had the exact name as a TCS actor!!

Muahaha!!

On the deck once more.

This time I was ready to rock and roll and look my best!!

A group pic.

Finally Christina is HERE!!

I mean she was there a long time, but she was very busy being a social

butterfly and organizing the cake and stuff, so she was like literally not there..

Pigging out. We were starved.. But when the food arrived

we realised we were no longer that starved, cause we wolf-ed down at least 8 chicken pies?!!

So nice to have dinner and booze on a beautiful yacht.

One Degree 15.

Our Yacht.

Nice drinks.

No idea who made them, but it sure looks yummy.

Prize giving Ceremony.

AND I GOT A CARTIER FROM KYAN!!!

U---HHUUU!!!

Birthday Surprise for the BOY.

Time to go home at 4am.

Sad. I was planning to stay over, apparently we didnt have enough rooms and beds.

Even if the girls share a bed, we have 5 of us plus 2 straight guys..

So anyway, we need to sleep so we decided to head home.

Nevertheless, its a once-in-a-lifetime evening.

I had so much fun and it really allowed me to forget all the unhappy things

for a moment.

Thanks KYAN for everything and i love you so much!!

High School Musical & Gotham Penthouse

This post should have been here a gazillion years ago, but i didnt managed to get

hold of the pictures from Kyan.

Anyway we decided to go for the

HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL on ICE!!!

After the show, we went for the 'long-planned, but didnt managed to materialize'

clubbing session!! Since the SQ ppl could sign us in free, we decided to head to

GOTHAM PENTHOUSE!!

Dien told me it was a club for old woman to find young man.

HAHA!!

Dun you wish ya girlfriend was HOT like me...

Dont ya wish ya girlfriend was freak like me..

Dont ya??

Or do you wish your girlfriend was HOT like them???

Muahaha...

$800 Spent

I am such a spend-thrift!!

Yesterday I went for a complimentary facial and end up signing up

for a $688 facial session.

It wasnt too bad, cause its 15 sessions and 1 session is abt 45 bucks..

But still, I cant believe I am spending money before i get my pay!!

I FOUND A Job!!!

Waahhaha..

You know what?

My aim was to find a job asap I graduate?

and start work by 1st Dec??

Well..

I did IT!!

I was abt to give up that hope already.

But the fri before I went for study break, I went for the interview,

and by the following mon, I got the job!!

U---HUUU!!

I only signed the appointment letter this Mon.

They were very nice and told me the sign only I finish my exams so as not to

distract me..

Anyway I am happy with the pay and my job!!

I hope the rest of the things will be as happy...

(XueEr - Seeking Happiness,1:36 PM)

Friday, September 26, 2008

OMG !!! I found them in my wardrobe just now.. SO much memories

i'm almost

bursting with excitement!!!

My CHEERLEADING UNIFORM from Sec Days!!!!

My godness! How many of you kept these??

How many of you thrown them down the chute??

You deserved to be spanked!!!!

I have been dancing with those lovely Pom Poms for the last

15 mins. Haha!!

Makes my feel so alive.

Did i tell you guys we won the 3rd place in the

NATIONAL CHEERLEADING COMPETITION 2001?

Yup. That's rite! That's us!!

I was captain then, and all my cheerleaders were my babies!!

Who has those photos??

CAn you pls surrender it?

I think its Sheena!!

Remember those photos where Juan was tossed till like 2 storeys high?

My god!! There were those shiny boards with words on them rite?

If you guys have it, anyone, pls send them to me can???

PLS!!!

Ohhh, i miss those days....

Too bad i only found the skirt for Magnum Force.

The cheerleading team for Ngee Ann Poly.

I dun know where i left the top though. If not you guys would

have seen that uniform too. Hee~

Canopy Walk @ Alexandra Rd

My life kinda is boring recently. Nothing major happening.

Haven been going out to anyway exciting. Well. Kinda like AH MA.

Rite. So i went to the 9 km walk at Alexandra Rd. Dun know whats the

name of it. Anyway here is it.

Harbour View.

On the Bridge.

Super Not "Natural".

Canopy Walk @ Kent Ridge Park.

Pretty Pink.

Flowers That Looked Like Butterfly.

I discovered a garden thing that is part of the trail.

I forgot what it is called, but its really pretty.

Many different kinds of flowers, some of which i have

never seen before! Good place to just lay on the grass and do nothing

There is this spanish restuarant that has really nice views.

MAybe i will try that out one day!

There is this place where wedding banquet can be held.

I believe its cheaper and really nice, if you like the garden concept.

(XueEr - Seeking Happiness,3:39 PM)